Anjay.

You know what will happen if we are together? Yes, you're right. It's not gonna happen.

I was loving you for years, i keep this feeling for you bcs i know you're not gonna like me, or yeah, you just gonna tell your mother "Mom, i can't live with him. I know i'm not gonna be happy." Then you gone at our wedding days.

I know, i know i'm overthinking at something that not happen yet. But i can feel it. I can feel it, of course i do. I've pass a lot of unrequited love so you don't need to explain anything of what you feel cuz i already know. Sucks.

If there's a chance for me to say something to you, i'm gonna say "I love you and i dont know how much time i should take to wait someone after you. You just like, a finish line that i can't touch. I wish i could, but i cant, bcs i know if i push myself to touch you, then i'm gonna hurt myself bcs i know that is not me who you want to be a winner"

I know i want to spending life with you, but i do completely know you wouldn't. It's hurt, but it's ok. At least, you're fine. It's enough.

Someday, in a First Saturday of autumn, i'm gonna sit over the 7th Avenue. I'm gonna put my headset on and play some la la land song and sketch a koala and panda to remember that i've ever love you at its finest. Anjay.